Broken
1 min readJun 28, 2016
Soul messed-up in so many ways and forms I don’t even remember
There are flashes of what has been and what might be
What I wanna be
Where I want to be
With whom
And doing what
I want him to feel me, I want him to genuinely want to know me
I want him to text those cute texts and mean it all
I crave to feel myself
But if I don’t, and I don’t think I do
Him feeling something would be my consolation prize
Us, not feeling love, not feeling anything
But having those nights together, those hard pushes in me
Through me
Those lustful kissing and awkward talking about oral sex after
I wish I felt something
Maybe I do
But all the hurt I’ve survived and endured doesn’t let me